Now that its getting down to the wire, my doctors apts. are scheduled weekly instead of biweekly. Today I went in and they checked Audrey's heartbeat and my cervix to see how far dilated I was. Im still only 3 cm =/ I could have sworn i've been feeling sharp period like pains and was hoping for more dilation but they were just false labor pains. I want to be dilated as far as I can before I get to the hospital so all I have to do is walk in, get my epidural and relaaaaaaax. I say this because I have a phobia of doctors and hospitals. I have a history of passing out and getting real claustrophobic. I know its all in my mind and I work myself up for no reason, but im trying to prevent this from happening before its time for me to go to the hospital for delivery. The last thing I need is to get all panicked and worked up for nothing. I sit at home, start thinking about it and get extremely nervous. I have a heart rate monitor [my dad uses it to check his blood pressure, etc for his diabetes] and check myself constantly when I feel something isnt right. I need to relax with some yoga and meditation but ive been so tired and lazy. During the day when its hot I hibernate [sleep for hours straight], and when it cools off during the late evening I get this big burst of energy [clean, organize, work on projects] and I cant sleep till 4am. Today is the first day i've actually had a sense of calming. As im sitting here im not nervous at all, I actually want to start this already! I want my water to break and I want to feel contractions. I dont know whats going on but I hope this feeling and sense of peace lingers. I heard that when you dont feel the baby move as much as she normally does its because shes settling lower and ready to come out. Ill keep an eye on that, but this lil girl is a mover and shaker!
Back to my doctors apt. As I was saying, Im only dilated 3cm and my doctor thinks ill be delivering close to June 30th. Unfortunately shes leaving for India tmrw until July and with my next apt [and delivery] ill have a new doctor [a male] finishing this process with me. Im actually happy about this, as much as I do enjoy her, I heard male doctors are best ;] Theyre a little more compassionate and sensitive when dealing with you. On another note, my test results came back NEGATIVE for the Group B Strep screening they do with all mothers around 38 wks. Im so excited that all tests [STD's, strep, diabetes, etc] have all come back NEGATIVE. My main concern has always been about the welfare of my baby and making sure shes healthy and if I were to test positive in any of those, the doctors would have to administer extra drugs to me/and/or the baby before/after delivery to ensure the baby isnt getting passed along whatever it is the mother has through the birth canal [your baby is coming out of your *ahem* vagina and whatever you have down there the baby can pick up, keep that in mind]. I have nothing to worry about with that though. God is good. The only thing thats bothered me quite a bit is weight gain. I didnt want to gain more than 35 pounds and today I found out that I gained 3 extra pounds...within a week! So now im sitting at 187 when I used to weigh 155. Thats only 32 pounds ive gained so far but I need to keep that under control for the next couple of weeks.
So this is where Im at right now. All is well and on its way. I've got some shopping to do this weekend for Audrey, it will definitely relieve some nervous tension. K baby girl, any day now......
